TSOTW closure… the showcase was a success!

So I had a great time throwing myself a live streamed showcase party today with my closest friends and family. You can watch the archived stream here.

I was really happy with the pleasant company of the people who came as well as the nice comments from my distant friends. They’re all eventually getting low-budget lyric coloring booklets to commemorate.

I can’t sustain it forever, but for now, if no one is giving me the opportunities I want, I’ll find ways to make them! I guess that has been the theme of this whole past year or so, and I don’t see that stopping anytime soon.

The Throwaway Song of the Week: The End of an Era

I’m very proud to say that I’ve just sent out my final, FIFTY-SECOND weekly song! I had a great time, learned a lot and wrote some songs I still really like. You can listen to the Best of the Throwaway Song of the Week album on my music page. You’ll also be able to watch me play some of them live at my virtual showcase on June 11th!

If you sign up for my email list within the month of June, I’ll send you the  album in a convenient .zip file. And you should, because this month I’m also introducing a new monthly newsletter! I think it’ll have something for everyone, from updates and goodies related to my music, to random recommendations and interesting things I’ve come across in my daily life.

I’m primarily looking for gigs at the moment, and although I have a lot of things in the works myself, any help is still welcome (feel free to email me). Expect some news very soon. Stay tuned!

Top 5 insights from the Throwaway Song of the Week project

After 52 weeks of weekly songs that definitely wasn’t always easily, I’ve finally reached the end of the road! Just wanted to share some quick thoughts about how it went.
1) Gratitude: I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, my subscribers are my favorite people in the world! The project would have been nothing without them because the accountability of people on the other end of my emails is what kept me writing songs on the weeks when I was tired and uninspired. Most of them also sent me compliments, encouragement and/or constructive criticism at some point, all of which contributed to making me feel like what I was doing was cool, and mattered. I’m not sure I would have stuck it out without that!
2) I have a lot more music in me than I’d thought. It is actually entirely possible to keep coming up with a new song idea from scratch every week indefinitely. While I knew that career songwriters exist who write 100 songs a year or even more, I thought they were creative wizards or something. Now I know it’s not wizardry, but pure discipline.

3) Skills improvement: Obviously, with practice I just get continually better at writing (and rewriting) lyrics and music, as well as singing, playing and recording, not to mention time management and last-minute problem solving! This was true even when I half-assed it, but the more I took risks and followed my whims and had fun with it, the more I learned. However, the half-assed, often formulaic songs I wrote were surprisingly not always the worst ones, and some of them turned out to be among my favorites!

4) Self-disclosure: One of the main things I wanted to get out of this was to lose my fear of publicly releasing both imperfect work and deeply personal content. I imagined this as a learning process throughout the year. However, it seemed like the first few weeks actually broke me and I lost those fears pretty quickly. On a somewhat related note, last year, listening to amazing songwriting as an artist used to make me want to give up and curl up into the fetal position. Now it energizes and motivates me to give it my best shot. Progress.

5) Knowing I’m doing the right thing: I took a break 1/4 of the way through at a stressful time when I genuinely thought I might never be able to write music well, and secretly, I told myself, “If I can make myself stop caring about music in these two months, I’ll just quietly quit this project and songwriting and music in general.” And… I couldn’t. A lot of the improvements are slow going and come at great difficulty, but when they do, they make me happier than anything else ever has in my life. This is the thing I would work at all day if my livelihood was sorted and I didn’t actually have to work at anything. I’m doing the right thing.